vulnerable baby.

I feel kinda, matured and think alot for future as compared to alot of my surroundings.
But at times, of weak and strains, i reduce to a crawler.
Today, almost like a zero.
where’s my hero.

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等

couldnt stop all the sobbing even till today.
Trying so much to be strong. YES!
i just couldnt cope w it yet.
TO be positive , and look at all those great memories we had.
but that triggers te fact that you are no longer here to hold my hands.
Every bus ride to and back from school, hurts.
Just wish [...]

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BnW Gradient.

Highlights of my life,
were when you smile and warms my heart.
Gradients of life.
The life of us two.
Firstly,
Thanks everyone who has shown much concern and watch my back all this while.This includes my close friends like Quelic Packs , CRs, TaiTais,Prince C ;  good friends like Jannson, Sheryl Thong, Caiyu, Sam, Vivi, Amy, and Martin’s [...]

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Feel

J.Crosses is currently pretty stressed.
And i’m supposed to have holidays nowwwww.
To be really honest,
I’ve been feeling damn uptight when i dance recently.
Uber stressed up, though most of the time , i always give smileys.

Two more weeks,
i’m so sorry that i cant really put myself in your shoes.
But i know how tough it is.
It’s extreme for [...]

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Sugargourd

Bitterchocolatier.
if you show more love.
Profound qualms;
Almost like phobia.
READERS, SO SORRY I’M SUCH A GOURD!
But im having an interesting and uber packed lifestyle!
XOXO YALL.
I’m feeling very uncertain and am having qualms about alot of issues. School work, dance , future and some relationship stuff. Yes, and nah nah, dont jump to conclusions you sweet baby jellos.
Sounds [...]

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that was why.

i found out something pretty upsetting two days back.
and it kept running through my mind, why so?
yes, feels kinda cheated.
thanks to amy and sherylthong being by my sides.
that explains winter.

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Halvedead.

What if i died halfway , not able to survive till the end.

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i’ll be good

what’s next on,
what future holds.
but i’m gonna be here with you till the very end,
unless..

you’re going through so much,
I aint gonna have you worrying.
Not gonna be part of your encumbrance.
Remember, i’m strong and has alot of sweet friends.
I’ll be good.

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What are we.

no fullstop.
We both know that.
but we kept keeping it on going.
are we eating into fate?
with the minimum belief and faith,
kept hanging on.
Clinging on to the every seconds of our moments.
our hands, our footsteps .
Crossed.
Overlapping shadows.
though deep in,
it’s preposterous to beg for you to be here.
the very next second,
wings and all.
obscured dolor,
hoping to not add on [...]

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Sleepless cycle

Please understand.
When you did THIS
and all you get is this.

and when your family does nothing but rants .
You  freaking got no idea wtf i’m gg through .
so the least you all can do is stfu.

I’m so drained out , by everything.

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