怕

Fear.
is trying much to overcome me.
Immersed.
Retreating that bit is tedious enough.
I know i shouldnt ,
But the voice is louder now.
禁恋。
Like leaves,
w blades.
We carve.
Just how deep we leave a mark.

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Drop.

JCrosses.
Stop falling.
The step might be too deep.
Plunging in too hard may suffocate you in the end.
Drop it.
Stop falling.
It’s just to prepare for the upcoming pain .
Just stay strong , like a boog.
♥

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Diamond heart.

Night falls ,
& your voice acts as aroma.
I’ll be strong when you’re off.
I want a metal heart.
Diamond heart.
whichever that’s tougher.
 
Popper skill, locker skill .
Dope groove and coordination.
And funk.
and dance like  fucking sick.
 
Jolenecrosses is feeling positive.
but kinda, affected by idk what.

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silence

Maybe just a fucking flirt.
Courage from coconut tree doesnt seems to be enough.
have done my part.
W no regrets.
As caiyubaobei said, i’m the one with heart ♥
school is exhausting.
Bitches are like popping out from all over.
this post is all rubbish.
all thanks to the crap from my good fren named headache.
Popped so many different pills.
Let no techniques [...]

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Alcohol. Dance.

Crave for booze.
Crave for dance.
CLUBBING!
Been uber long since i do so! OMG!
I will tell you soon,
even if you were to avoid me from then on.
Fear menaces.
But i’m strong.
one arm strong. (inside joke – i thought neil armstrong was called one arm strong)

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Muted.

I tried, hard.
Held on. Did not give up.
Did not fail.
Now, my words, me are all invisible.
Tell me what to do.
I’m lost.
 
i realised i dont know you even after these few months.
you may be complicated as you said you’re.
These short few months of friendship may be nothing to you.
I admit, I looked more into it.
All the [...]

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Why

Why these unknown fear.
keyed your number in,
hit the call button.
Before it even start dialling,
Bye.
Why so afraid J.Crosses.
Breath of courage ,
No longer there.
What happened J.Crosses.
You were never like that.

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Pain gallery

The crybaby suit clinged on to me.
I just cant get rid of it.
So much stress that i’m giving myself.
My body reacts.
Worn out.
Though we’re nothing,
I start to imagine when you’re gone .
Get used to it JoleneCrosses. This is life.

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Yesterday-gonnabe

Day by day.
Passed.
The worries on your face,
spoke to me , endlessly.
I expect nothing.
Just this urge to hug you tight and never let yesterday take you away.
The sudden burst of fear,
you becoming yesterday soon.
It takes courage .
I’m taking it all with me.
How much wounds i’ll get from this fall,
I’ld be strong.

Yesterday lyrics
I [...]

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Time.

should I stop before it is even to start.
Not to mention if there would even be one in the first place.
Or continue to live in denial, enjoy your presence.
I will keep mum till sometime later.
For now, i might slowly fade out or stay in steps.
Thanks for being there, being nice.
though it’s not just to me, but [...]

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