Obscured book

It’s tough to cry , tedious to hold back my tears.

what am i supposed to do?

People around me tell me not to.
But how.

i need a form of relief.
I need to let it all out.

i need someone’s ears.
Someone’s shoulder.
Someone, who can be trusted.

How to trust?
How to have faith?

i’ve became alone.
I keep stuffs to myself.
I became an obscured book.
Do you want to search for the keys and unreveal the chapters?
I doubt anyone could.

I need to cry, but it’s forbidden.

I hate.

Snobbish people bang wall and die okay,
Guys who think that all girls throw themself to you bastards should do so too.

I live in a caliginous corner of the world.
Just forsaken , not being allowed.

i need someone for me to cry, for me to rant. i cant possibly drown my softies with my sorrows. they wont understand.

tears, buried underneath,
Right in the heart.
AT the verge of my eyes,
I dunnoe how long i can hold on to faith.

Grieve; i dare not trust.

somewhat, screwed.

I lost my ability to avoid hatred.
That sort of irritable feel suck.
I am attracting negative atoms.

But suckers , FUCK.
and Fuckers , SUCK.

To hell with no dignity.

I just cant manage myself.
I need to be my own mirror.
Own up to my own mindset.
Surrender and be myself.
Stop acting as if comfy.
There’s no barrier.

I’m just getting worse. I need to relieve all this.

I NEED A TRUSTWORTHY BITCH . i’ve yet to find one, how sad.

Darling moments.

Those lights shone.
The familiar faces down there.
You clearly know that they were cheering for you.
You know who are the ones.
You’ll feel touched , trust me.

Thanks Rytefully 14 for making all this happen.
Without you girls, there’ld not be a platform.
We all did well! wheets.
Thanks next team crew who joined in this performance.
You guys did so awesome that yo mama shake her ass!

Thanks Pandora’s Gallow.
Even at times i had to leave for my dance, you guys managed to clinch a bond among.

There’s still so much i want to say, bout nuff said.
My eyelids are shutting.

Pandora’s Gallow.

Thanks hongquan and corrine for the following vids.
Yes, in green.

Thanks AE. Blue roses are as nice as black ones.

Rytefully 14 and next team crew.

a closer one and a further one:)

And yes! i saw the board! And i heard people shouted crosses

Thanks people who had encouraged me, Cheered for us, waved your hands together. I know who you are:)

Revive that moment.

If you would like to comment, please do so. Just think b4 you act. Stop allowing your mental status reflects on you.

Thanks for those kind words sweethearts, love.

tense

Tense.
I dunnoe what to do. Stop asking me these same questions again.
I need discipline to bring me to higher altitudes.

Emotions have been trying to conquer me recently.
I’m still battling with it. I know i need to hang on. Just that tat more.

Been upset easily. What wrong with me? ( this is the question that i hate most)

AT the brim of giving up, renouncing myself.
I’m such a loser.

But that’s not the girl , that’s not Jolene neither crosses.

Make things work , chu.

QnA

There was a search that leads to my blog.
and i think that person just closed the window cause there’ aint any thing that she/he want.

“why support ethe`real”
To quench th thirst of your curiousity, i shall type this following words as my own pov.
Firstly , they are definitely distinctive. they obviously stand out from the normal crowd of band players. Not just the hairdo , and dressings ( well , it’s pretty common when people does vk) , their towering height will capture your attention for sure.
Another fact(alright,sometimes i wonder if it’s a fact), is that they are really friendly. Whether kosher or fradulent, they are amiable. They are people who are easy to communicate with. 
Well , i guess  music is still a important factor when it comes to supporting a band. yeaps, they are good. They make music in a variaiton of aspect. They would add a touch of their air and modify parts of a song yet not overdoing it or in whichever way , do injustice to the song.

yey. support them now? 

i just pretty lazy to type more.

SUPPORT SOAP aka FEI ZAO.
professional musicians
Strong band.
unique flavour of burger.
Differs alot from the other bands.
Good people. Easy to get along.

Ciaos. i had a bad audtion today. erase it.
 

Appearance

 

Is it the appearance, the packaging that matters most?

Say,

Scars are signs of growth.
Memoirs of past.

Oversized is just a descrimination against food lovers and exercise haters.

Not bearing eyes like Ayumi Hamisaki , a nose like Paris Hilton , lips like Angelina Jolie, figure like Heidi Klum.

Are all that considered ugly?

How  do you rate appearance as importance?

Cases of plastic surgery increased tremondously throughout recent years.
Can we consider it as a good issue as people care more about their image? There have been critism against the obesed , fat , ugly , disfigured and so on.. So, what’s wrong with the society’s double standard. Why are there still censures regarding Plastic Surgery? There is no crime wanting to be in face with beauty, is it?  Seem like there are quite a number of people whom had plastic or cosmetic surgery not being accepted. Partly, they share common views with the public who “never wished” to be pretty. Acceptance level is still low.

There’s more than appearance. Guys, are just shallow. I’m referring to most of them.
We ladies, cant get more idiot if beautifying ourselves is for the sake of someone else.

Get pulchritude with grace and confidence. Be the sweetest to yourself. ♥

That was me.

No longer. Still.

I indulged in alcohol , dance to the tune of devils , swim from the stars to the sun . Regularly.

I spent on food. Good food , as and when.

I cried. Cried rivers of hatred. Bored with motives and pain.

Eyes of enmity. I was rarely smiling.

I get drunk and wasted. Hyper ventilation was in love with me.

like a knave, i lost grace.

That was , me.

 
I’ve thought that these people will be by my side, be my wings and fly me to higher level of growth.
Apparently, i left them as they turned away. I always thought that they will be the friends whom i placed first. i honoured them. Esp, qiaohui and meiling. Sometimes, i do miss my old life. Sometimes.

Do justice.

It hurts so much , just to see you being upset.

Yi xuan feng got eliminated in QF1.
I bet no one expected it.
Can actually tell that some of the bands looked disappointed.

Seems like mediacorps want more money. GREEEDY.

Doubts

be doubtful about the term Happiness.
Left out. Quarrels. Just a stand for own rights.

AWAY ):!

I’m gonna be in genting till tuesday.

must miss me alrights! ):

have already updated my smiley life at www.loveitcrosses.blogspot.com

www.royalust.wordpress.com has glamour rock series.
Wanna rock the street , sweet. no one got the same item as you. GO SEESEE!(:
i really spent plenty of effort in it. REALLY.

whoever can record superband for me , please do me this big favour. THANKYOU. i ‘ll get you candy bar or a kiss. up to you! HAAHAH.

Crosses smiling. like monalisa.